Many people ask me about the intuitive part of my job. Am I a psychic? Do I channel spirits/angels/guides? Am I a shaman? In a way, yes to all of those questions, but I also feel that what I'm doing goes beyond our current understanding of spirituality and what human life on planet earth actually is. The language we have for my experience is limited.
Throughout history there have been people who have conversations with a benevolent 'voice' that guides them through life and difficult times. Jesus heard God, Joan of Ark followed the guidance of angels and saints, Martin Luther King heard Jesus, Mahatma Gandhi was a Hindu who was guided by what he called the "still, small voice within", and Mother Teresa followed the directives of who she perceived as the voice of Jesus. I was not brought up with any religion, but in regard to my personal experience of a guiding inner voice, these are the people I relate to most. However, my feeling is that science, particularly quantum physics, holds answers to the reality of my experience.
Quantum physicists have discovered that we, as the observer of our experiences, are personally involved in the creation of our reality. As an intuitive energy healer I have noticed that what people habitually think and feel, becomes their reality. For example, if you are insecure and constantly fear rejection, you will experience rejection. If you are judgmental of yourself or others, you will experience the reality of feeling judged. It seems that we are the director of the movie of our life, and our eyes are the projector. The script is written by our most persistent thoughts, and is projected out via quantum mechanics, becoming our experience. This has become one of my key teachings in helping people overcome disease and feeling stuck in life. Changing your perception and negative habitual thoughts can create huge shifts in experience, such as achieving health or moving forward in life.
Which brings me back to this voice that I hear. Consciously or subconsciously, we all put together a variety of random information, hearsay, and assumptions to construct personal belief systems of our physical and spiritual reality. We are all conditioned from birth to believe in certain 'truths'. However, having been brought up in an atheistic family environment, I have not been able to figure out who I am talking to. If I'd had a religious upbringing I most likely would know I was talking to God, but as I haven't, I'm left wondering on a daily basis. I used to think the voice was my intuition. To an extent, I still believe this is true, but it is also beyond intuition. I know this because the voice is always wise, calm, and assured. My brain and thoughts are most definitely not always this way. Like you and all humans, I experience fear, insecurities, anger, grief, and negativity. I often swear, and occasionally have tantrums at the universe! So although I am clear that the voice comes through me, I am also clear that it is not really of me. I'm just a normal human being who is good at hearing it.
Perhaps what we perceive to be God, is actually the energy of consciousness. What is consciousness? Is it possible that it is a field of energy that is co-created by all of our thoughts and feelings via quantum physics? Is consciousness just our collective wisdom? Am I having a dialogue with it? Why does it want to help me to help others through the healing work I do? These are all questions that I can't answer yet, but I am grateful for this voice that I hear, and for the opportunity to share what I hear with you.